Taina’s Monday Morning Response

Good Morning!

Here’s what’s important according to the New York Times followed by my own personal opinions.

Taliban strike playground in Pakistan.

The authorities are hunting today for the militants who killed at least 70 people — more than twice as many deaths as in the Brussels attacks last week — at a park in Lahore, Pakistan’s second largest city.

About 300 people were wounded. The death toll is expected to rise.

A splinter faction of the Pakistani Taliban claimed responsibility for the blast, and its spokesman said the assault was targeting Christians on Easter.

A fucking playground?! Are you fucking kidding me?! I get how in some twisted way terrorists are seeking justice. There’s some whacko moral behind it but targeting children is beyond me. Children are yet to truly understand the implications of being Christian from the point of view of these terroristic Taliban. Why not target real bad people? You know like rapists, murderers and politicians. Even brothels would be better than a playground. And I bet these sick assholes even know where to find some. If you’re going to be psychopathic murderers why not be more like the Punisher? His agenda at least makes sense.

• The story behind Trump’s rise.

We’ve traced how the Republican elite abandoned its most faithful voters, blue-collar white Americans facing economic pain, while the party’s donors, lawmakers and lobbyists prospered.

But as infighting among Republicans grows over the front-runner, Donald J. Trump, the party’s leaders are still not embracing Ted Cruz.

What confuses me about Trump’s rise most is that aside from the crazy people you see at his rally’s the whole world seems to hate him. Has me wondering if this is all some kind of illuminati government set up. This surely can’t be like a real thing, can it?

• Sanders sweeps.

Bernie Sanders begins the week with hopes of staging a spring comeback against Hillary Clinton. He won decisively in voting in Alaska, Hawaii and Washington State on Saturday.

Mr. Sanders is expressing concern that Mrs. Clinton might not debate him because of her delegate lead.

Go underdog!! I’m completely a Bernie fan. Although I started out Hillary it doesn’t make sense to vote for her just because she’s a woman. Bernie seems to really want to make a difference where as Hillary seems more typical politician. Either way she’s a strong candidate though, so why wouldn’t she want to debate Bernie?

Man up Hilary. Wait that’s sexist. Stop being a Pussy. Nope that doesn’t work either. *sigh* Just Do It?

• The aftermath in Brussels.

New suspects in the Paris and Brussels terrorist attacks have been arrested. The fact that extensive preparations for the bombings in Brussels went undetected is stirring anger and dismay.

But the question of what turns people toward violence — and whether they can be steered away from it — is bedeviling researchers.

Every morning this gets coverage on the news and I just don’t understand why. Not to discredit or devalue any of the lives lost here but this isn’t the only terrorist attack in the last week. It’s actually one of the smallest. But this does ask a very interesting question; what turns people toward violence? Probably revenge, and poverty, if not mental defect.

• Losses for ISIS.

Syrian government forces have regained full control of the ancient city of Palmyra from Islamic State militants after a nearly yearlong occupation.

While the U.S. announced the killing of a top Islamic State commander, the group struck again with a suicide bombing that killed at least 31 people at a soccer game near Baghdad.

The Syrian governments ability to regain control is amazing but it’s clearly not enough…

• A $15 minimum wage?

A tentative deal by California lawmakers to raise the state’s minimum wage could be announced as soon as today. The wage, which was raised to $10 on Jan. 1, would increase incrementally to $15 over the next six years.

If approved, California would become the first state to adopt a $15-an-hour minimum wage.

It would be wonderful if the whole nation adopted a $15 minimum wage but what about the people that currently make $15? or $20? We all better be getting pay raises because there is no reason why a McDonalds employee should be making as much as an entry level school employee.

So let’s sum it up; the world is going to shit but the media is biased (nothing new), Bernie might actually go up against Trump (why is Trump still here?!) and California may be the best place to live if you have no education.

Sounds about right.

Happy Easter

Happy Easter ya’ll. Even if you aren’t of the faith that recognizes this day I hope you have a wonderful Sunday. While I don’t personally follow the Christ centered religions I grew up in a Catholic family and always celebrated the Hallmark side of the holiday so I still love to paint and decorate eggs with my minion and I think even after she is too old, while I hope she always comes home and paints eggs with me, I think I’ll still do it just for fun. And then throw them out the balcony at children passing by. 

Just kidding about throwing them out the balcony.

Maybe.

Anyway here are some of the finer ones..

This chalk board inspired one:

 
Some paint marker ones:

  

Shimmery coated ones:

  
  

And my favorite (egg and painting) This starry night inspired one:

 

Spell Check’s Drug of Choice

We all have pesky spell check mishaps but what I saw happen today has convinced me that spell check actually had a mind of its own. And also preferred drugs.

I had relieved texts from both my brother and my boyfriend while I was away from my phone for about half an hour.

Here is the screen shot from the boyfriend conversation:

And here is Brothers’ conversation:


Now neither my boyfriend or my brother do coke or even drink Coke  so why is spell check changing cold and come into Coke?

Spell check clearly has some drug addiction issues it needs to address.

Lost in my future

I love being alone at night because it give me peace and tranquility and full bed space to spread my legs and cuddle with Payge.

I hate being alone at night because the darkness is like my own personal therapist making me open up about shit I don’t want to talk about.

Last night I had a session with myself and here’s what was accomplished:

I feel so alone and would rather not exist because I truly feel like I can’t prevent my inevitable failure. I won’t amount to be shit but a poverty level Spanish girl from Brooklyn. Girl. Now woman. I still can’t see myself as an adult. And yet, I keep meeting new people who are beginning their careers – not jobs, but actual careers. What they have a passion for. What they want to actually DO in life. And they’re fucking younger than me. I’m 28. I thought I had a few more years before I felt like I was missing my chance at succeeding.

I always want more. I want to be happy. I want to be happy with what I have but being happy with what I have is accepting failure. Or putting it in a better note, accepting my accomplishments at what they are. Two bachelors. And awesome daughter. A rent controlled apartment in Williamsburg that I only have because I am the first living child to come out of my mother who is no longer here. Whoopie.

I am struggling mentally and yet it’s all beneath the surface.

What do you want?!

I want to find my purpose and it’s taking too fucking long to figure it out.

You like art. You’re an artist. Maybe that’s your calling?

Yeah. Right. I don’t have my own distinct style. No imagination. And no patience.

You love reading. You should get back into writing.

What the fuck do you think I’m doing. Plus, this isn’t going to make me money or successful. Im tired of the fucking routine dude. I’m bored!

I’m tired of you yelling at me.

I’m tired of me yelling at me.

… I’m going fucking crazy. I just want some happiness and a little sanity to go along with it. Who am I? I feel like I need to do a little Eat, Pray, Love and figure it the fuck out but I can’t because I’m broke and I have a kid who needs to be in school.

I think I lost myself a few years back and now I’m struggling with only half my mentality, thinking about the future. And I’m lost there too.

Side note: Walking outside my house feels like such a task because I know I have to interact with other humans and while I look decent from the outside I really imagine myself looking like Oscar the Grouch:

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This is what I’m truly thinking I look like when I smile and say Hi.

 

Sneaker Culture Influences Ignorance

Sneakerhead. Sneaker addict. Hype beast. Fuccboii.

This is the ladder into the depths that is the sneaker culture these days it seems. Normally, in a society as materialistically wealthy as ourselves, it seems plausible to expect to be able to walk into a sneaker store for a pair of sneakers you want, wait on a reasonably lengthy line, purchase them and go home. Not to mention they should also be reasonable priced, scaled on the quality of the shoe, rather than the name.

But Nooooooo. How foolish that would be to even fathom such a thing?

No not at all.

If you want the biggest sneaker of the year, every sneakerhead/sneakeraddict/hypebeast/fuccboii dream,- the Yeezy Boost 350’s – then expect to wait on line,

outside,

in below freezing temperature,

in the snow,

for anywhere from 30 minutes to over two hours,

for a ticket,

just for the small chance that maybe, just maybe, you may be lucky enough to win a pair.

This is absolutely insane. With the technology we have there are much simpler, more convenient, cost-effective, and less frost-bite inducing ways to raffle off sneakers!

The big footlocker on 34th street had people entering 3 people at a time while 3 employees wrote down the information for each individual, as every other sneaker store did, but in a way which had much down time between each group of three, completely giving no fucks whatsoever, about all the people, mostly young adults, who were outside in the fucking cold for the slight glimmer of a fucking chance to get these sneakers and be the cool kid.

We are raising sheep. People should not be on line in these conditions for a product from a self-centered artist who makes millions while his fans suffer. Kanye’s such a genius, why doesn’t he raffle them off using his own personal app? Probably because he, along with big money grubbing, corporations like footlocker, don’t really give a shit about the people. They want to make us work, and suffer, for the holy grail of sneakers.

Well fuck you Kanye.

And fuck you even more footlocker.

Review: Challenger Deep

“And you know the darkness beyond despair, just as intimately as you know the soaring heights. Because in this and all universes, there is balance. You can’t have the one without facing the other. And sometimes you think you can take it because the joy is worth the despair, and sometimes you know you can’t take it and how did you ever think you could?”
          – Neal Shusterman, Challenger Deep

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Challenger Deep is not just a work of fiction but a journey into a broken mind. One that many people can relate to, even if you’ve never been diagnosed with a mental illness, the deep disparity that is felt resonates with anyone who has ever felt lost, alone, depressed or utterly torn, either directly or as a witness.

It toggles back and forth between the reality that consists of friends and family and the reality that is born in the protagonists’ mind. Although at first mildly confusing eventually it’s as if the reader is a passenger on the ride into schizophrenia. While I’ve never been close to schizophrenia the darkness that envelopes the main character is something eerily familiar, like the creepy next door neighbor that never says a word but just stares into your soul. The illustrations are as lucid as the thoughts of anyone who has experienced being lost in ones own mind. The entire story speaks volumes, and it’s clear that the author has witnessed the destruction of mental illness first hand.

Bravo.

“Dead kids are put on pedestals, but mentally ill kids get hidden under the rug.”                          – Neal Shusterman, Challenger Deep